Find Meaning In Demons

by How I Became Invisible

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1.
Revolver 01:46
You told me you were sorry But I've spent years just waiting for Another piece to fall beside you You told me not to worry But the lines that fade from red to blue Aren't leading anywhere untrue And by last light The metaphor became undone As all the insides turned to out And replaced the loathing with the doubt And we'll find out When the world revolves again I know it's not the best time But these things I've got can't wait around For one of us to be underground and I found a place for my spine It's right beside the heart your stole And dumped on the roadside long ago And now tonight I'm sure I'm not the only one Who looked deep inside those pretty eyes And saw the truth behind the lies We'll find out When the world revolves again I sit here with all this blood on my hands I'm finding out that I'm not a person I can stand and I can wait here forever til you find me on the floor But you're not mine to die for anymore You're not mine to die for anymore
2.
We've all been waiting here a long time We've all been standing on stage yelling out with our fists raised high We've seen the world go further into the deep end And now it's time to tear down walls and change some minds I think we're on our way I think we're moving on So much for standing by It's time to take them down No more fake rebellions No more waiting for someone to tell us no We've had it up to here with your fake rebellions We're here to take it back You oughta know You've got to go You've gotta go Run through the gas clouds to the next dawn Speak the names and spark the flame FUCK ONE TWO Sticks and stones and blood and bones And all the things we've called our own Don't mean anything until every last motherfuckers running from the undertow Tear down the monuments Rename every fucking town The system's overwhelmed It's time to tear it down No more fake rebellions No more waiting for someone to tell us no We've had it up to here with your fake rebellions We're here to take it back You oughta know You've got to go You've gotta go
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Dyatlov Pass 00:36
Annunciation declaration Pain confinement and division Defer collision excitation Release disbursement and revision Recreation indecision Music film and television Multiply divide derision Start deciding Stop Finality Are we finally free? Finality Finality How long until we're free?
4.
You told me that you wanna die I said that I can't relate, I've spent too much time Trying to survive and still fighting Barely moving but alive Staying inside through a whole summer Creating something out of nothing that I'll ever find Four rooms and an entire life Stuck in between myself and a waste of time I'm staying up nights looking for the light At the end of the tunnel again So many nights without my friends I'm staying up nights looking for the light All I've found is my entire life inside Had trouble sleeping but it all makes sense Maybe it's over, maybe I'm wiser Maybe I'm overthinking and should just call it quits Maybe this is really happening Maybe it's another time I have to start over I've been worried for an entire winter Standing in place while the present passed me by Four walls and an exit sign Sleeping through the panic of an endless wasted life I'm staying up nights looking for the light At the end of the tunnel again So many months without my friends I'm staying up nights looking for the light All I've found is my entire life inside Had trouble sleeping but it all makes sense It’s the feeling when you hear a song that caves the center of your chest in and the emptiness is both frightening and comforting at the same time. It’s being awake at 230am knowing you have to get up at 6 but staring into the blackness looking for the color swirl that happens just out of the corner of your eye. It’s the quiet of the morning walk when you can hear birds singing but they’re not close enough to make out a clear melody but it’s close enough to let you know it’s there. It’s a sadness but a sadness you know and live with and live in, an anger you let dissipate but hover like a light fog, a loneliness that comes with being around other people. It’s wanting to be held and touched but also left alone and ignored. It’s everything, it’s nothing really. It’s fine, ok, getting by, alive, dealing with it. It’s not. It’s all of that. We all have trouble sleeping
5.
I know I'm pathetic, I knew when she said it A loser, a bum's what she called me when I drove her home There's no more waiting and sure no more wasting I've done all I can but she still wants to be left alone You got, you got, you got to help me out And I'll try not to argue No one, no one, no one likes a drop-out Mistakes are hard to undo Don't pull me down, this is where I belong I think I'm different but I'm the same and I'm wrong Don't pull me down, this is where I belong I think I'm different, this is where I belong I think it's disgusting, believing and trusting If I gave a fuck there would be nothing for me to prove Although it's amusing, it's slightly confusing I've done all I can but her ego is still hard to move You got, you got, you got to help me out And I'll try not to argue No one, no one, no one likes a drop-out Mistakes are hard to undo Don't pull me down, this is where I belong I think I'm different but I'm the same and I'm wrong Don't pull me down, this is where I belong I think I'm different but this is where I belong Don't pull me down, this is where I belong I think I'm different, this is where I belong
6.
Oh it's been such a long night for a short time And I am barely keeping awake I'd like to say I trued But I keep falling back on my old ways Saying "hands off the merchandise" As I capsize in some vacant eyes And wash up on the shores of an already outdated life Sing it back like something you used to know Don't try to pretend it meant anything before you let it go The words that follow you into the night... "Maybe I'll get those right this time" All the songs that kept us in touch so well Are all lost in all the places that we fell So we toss all of the memories on the shelf Til we get older, maybe remember what we felt Thought I was here for a good time not a long time All the days just drifting by Now all the years stretch out ahead of me Thinking maybe my design Was made obsolete on the planning side And I can't decide if I should sit or fly And so for now I guess I'm older And I'm wasting all my time trying to decide If when the time comes to say goodbye When I leave, can I say I tried? All the songs that kept us in touch so well Are all lost in all the places that we fell So we toss all of the memories on the shelf Til we get older, maybe remember what we felt All the songs I wrote over the years Have been lost inside our greater fears So I toss them all away And now that I'm older, I don't remember what to say

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Part 2: Anger

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released June 18, 2021

How I Became Invisible is:
N.Reed - vocals, guitar, bass, drums, keys, programming

Additional vocals on track 4: Joe Howland, Big Aluminum, Matthew Herb, Nick Gonzalez, Jaye Lee Vocque, Reesa H., Albert Bergquist
Vocals on track 5: Joe Howland

All songs, music and lyrics, by N.Reed
except track 5, by Blink-182

Recorded at Wayward Studios, NJ 2021
Mastered by Azimuth Mastering: www.azimuthmastering.com

Thank you to everyone everywhere. You know who you are. Be seeing you.
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songs about science, sadness, anger, and transition. we're all in this together. so raise your fist and start to sing.

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