The Wave Returns To The Ocean

by How I Became Invisible

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We've all been waiting here a long time We've all been standing on stage yelling out with our fists raised high We've seen the world go further into the deep end And now it's time to tear down walls and change some minds I think we're on our way I think we're moving on So much for standing by It's time to take them down No more fake rebellions No more waiting for someone to tell us no We've had it up to here with your fake rebellions We're here to take it back You oughta know You've got to go You've gotta go Run through the gas clouds to the next dawn Speak the names and spark the flame One Three One Two Sticks and stones and blood and bones And all the things we've called our own Don't mean anything until every last motherfuckers running from the undertow Tear down the monuments Rename every fucking town The system's overwhelmed It's time to tear it down No more fake rebellions No more waiting for someone to tell us no We've had it up to here with your fake rebellions We're here to take it back You oughta know You've got to go You've gotta go
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Challenger 03:16
And I wait for another time And I wait for another sign And I wait for the better life you chose Cos I'm sick of being stuck in fits And I'm sick of being fucking sick And I'm sick of everything but I guess that's how it goes So I sit and think of what's inside And I sit and sing all I have to hide And I sit and wonder what I've yet to learn Cos I'm not what people think I am And I'm not anything that I can stand And I'm not waiting for the end to let it burn I am standing in my bedroom Looking in the mirror, at a broken frame And if we're being honest I'm afraid of what I'll hear And I am standing in my bedroom With nothing left on but my name I can't lose much more than I already have this year I watched the shuttle fall and break apart I was six years old and it broke my heart Not that I'm older (Not that I'm older) Now that I'm older I don't give a fuck about anything I watched the shuttle fall and break apart I was six years old and it broke my heart Not that I'm older (Not that I'm older) Now that I'm older I don't give a fuck about anything I watched the shuttle fall and break apart I was six years old and it broke my heart Not that I'm older (Not that I'm older) Now that I'm older I don't give a fuck about anything I watched the shuttle fall and break apart I was six years old and it broke my heart Not that I'm older (Not that I'm older) Now that I'm older I don't give a fuck about anything I watched the shuttle fall and break apart I was six years old and it broke my heart And the trick is just to keep from breaking now
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Page one, line one, focus in on the subject Pick another new year and call me someone else My horoscope is a horror show And it's like I'm living in the undertow It's been too long for me to tell So someone call me and tell me I'll be okay Someday Pick a number, choose a name And tell me who I am today I am burning bright like a distant star I am flaming out like a voyager So we can't see the end of the world If we get that far tonight The war is never over so long as we fight The light at the end of the tunnel Is the rest of the world burning Just know I love you, friend I'm still waiting here, still calling a truce Because I want to feel like I'm making a difference And not just killing time til the end So I'm closing off my better days Saying one last toast to my old ways And greeting the dawn with another face Is that a promise or a threat these days I am burning bright like a distant star I am flaming out like a voyager So we can't see the end of the world If we get that far tonight The war is never over so long as we fight All I have is my words And they won't ever be enough I can change what I am, take a different name Try out a new face, take a share of the blame We're not fighting for our place in line And if it's not ours then it's time Burning bright like a distant star I am flaming out like a voyager So we can't see the end of the world If we get that far tonight The war is never over so long as we fight
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Cutting open my palm just to read my future It says it's getting brighter But I've got my doubts That's more than enough to get me through tomorrow I'm reading signs in the sky to figure it all out From the bright lights of the city To the dark streets of the suburbs I'll swim against the current And hope this year won't pull me under Is this really any better Is this really a way out There's islands out at sea Waiting there for me I'm jumping off the edge This year won't be the death of me My heart is a haunted house All empty doors and scattered furniture Lining all the halls I used to know Is that blood on my hands or is it just the future Ganging up on me and everything I've done Is this really any better Is this really a way out There's islands out at sea Waiting there for me I'm jumping off the edge This year won't be the death of me (This year won't pull me under This year won't pull me under I'll swim against the current Say your goodbyes)
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So I guess this is what it's like for one without the other Two steps forward, one step back Can't seem to find another We're both know the way, we're both the same We both share the blame for what's happened So cross our fingers, it's now or it's never So I cross the line Cross the void And hope that I can change your mind Change your mind It's not that easy is it Falling through the earths Just so that I can change your mind Change your mind And so it's through the planes I jump until we all see If I can work this out then we'll both be happy And so I try, try and find the time The place where this doesn't end in the same way And I'm still lost between the now and the never So I cross the line Cross the void And hope that I can change your mind Change your mind It's not that easy is it Falling through the earths Just so that I can change your mind Change your mind Like ships passing in the night I'm not sure who I should fight And it's taking all my strength to just Keep this going on From point to point I turn With every universe I burn I'm getting one step close to the edge Of knowing what I wanted all along So I cross the line Cross the void And hope that I can change your mind Change your mind It's not that easy is it Falling through the earths Just so that I can change your mind Change your mind Change your mind It's not that easy is it Falling through yourself Just so that I can change your mind Change your mind
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Give me a moment Can we table this for now Before we let go of all we know I need a second to figure out If I'm not the person that I want to be Then what am I doing now Just a minute, just a moment Just a chance to think about All the ways we use each other And the secrets that we hide And the final thoughts that keep me sitting wide awake at night Give me a moment Just one more moment Then let it die
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I guess I'm tired of this running, this running around Back to where I've been coming from, feet on the ground It's not like it's living, sticking to safety nets Still so unforgiving, maybe tomorrow I'll get.... And I am so tired I can barely hear you coming in Tonight Tonight So we spin in our circles and turn back again Looking for a purpose and a way to fit in Must've lost all our memories and left them behind In the blink of a moment and a last sunrise And I am so tired I can barely hear you coming in These lights are so bright I can barely see you; are we all right Tonight Tonight And I am so tired I can barely hear you coming in These lights are so bright I can barely see you; are we all right And I am so tired I can barely hear you coming in And I am so tired I guess I'm just tired of this running, this running around
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I've been at war for weeks I guess It's getting close to years I've been drowning in the fears Of all the methods that have served me oh so well It's not a choice I've made It's just a game I've played I'm tired of this half-life This half light In half time So it's high time I start trying And stop wasting time I'm not waiting anymore I'm not signaling your ship to come to shore I'm just looking for the mirror That shows me who I want to be tomorrow And I'm not waiting anymore I won't be lighting up the beacons on the shore I'm taking my time And taking back all the shipwrecks I left behind me One more time for the big prize I'm shaking in these sheets Trying to stay on the beat And falling back into the answer that I need It's just behind the eyes Like I've been waiting my whole life to fly I'm not waiting anymore I'm not signaling your ship to come to shore I'm just looking for the mirror That shows me who I want to be tomorrow And I'm not waiting anymore I won't be lighting up the beacons on the shore I'm taking my time And taking back all the shipwrecks I left behind me Got caught up in a moment Got stuck inside a dream I finally found the answer I finally changed my scene There's a knocking at the window And my own eyes stared back at me She said: you are the water, I am the ocean Take my hand and learn to breathe I'm not waiting anymore I'm not signaling your ship to come to shore I'm just looking at the skyline and wondering Why I've never seen that star before And I'm not waiting anymore I won't be lighting up the beacons on the shore I'm taking my time And looking out at all the waves stretched out before me
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Almost Human 03:59
I've been waiting so long For the truth to hit me I've been carrying on Like there's nothing left in me I've been sitting along With the answer right in front of me I'm not my biggest fan Is it obvious But I'm sure I'd give me a hand For being so damn gracious It's not too late To be someone great So this is what it's like To be in the background smiling At all the moments that died When everyone keeps piling on I guess it's all the same Pronouns are just words anyway Is this the place where I get to say I'm myself now So try, try to push it all by Try, try, don't plan out your whole life There's other things to think about Than what others think you think about So try, try again And start to begin We're all just almost human We're all just almost human We're all flying too close to the sun So take me as I am Take anything you want from me I'm moving up and moving on And I won't let anyone try to stop me I'm the girl I want to be As the same as I was 23 And I'm try, trying So try, try to push it all by Try, try, don't plan out your whole life There's other things to think about Than what others think you think about So try, try again And start to begin
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And this is where it begins The final curtain raised again And all the anthems we caved in are Echoed back in perfect tens and so it's One last wave goodbye One last time in the bright lights So sing it back again All the words we put to pen And melodies that weave in through you Until you have the strength to hold to It's there inside if you just looking into the dark That's where we are Let there be light To guide you home In the darkest night Because you're not alone The world may fall apart around you But you can find your way to get through Lift your lanterns high There will be light I'll climb the ladder again To the same places that I've been Scratch the windows to get the sun Hoping I get out before it's done And I am still figuring out my song Wondering where I went so wrong But I guess that's the curse of time The slow decay of every night To the last breath we will fight Let there be light To guide you home In the darkest night Because you're not alone The world may fall apart around you But you can find your way to get through Lift your lanterns high There will be light
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I'm lost in the forest all alone No compass or map and no way home The stars are blacked out, an empty sky This is the best day of my life Stealing my words from empty streets Miles and miles left under my feet Come open up my chest again Pull out the answer, change my name Crack open your ribcage, be a ghost Call every single person that you know Is this just another memory Or is this not for you It's just for me

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released October 2, 2020

How I Became Invisible is:
Ndot - vocals, guitar, bass, drums, keys, programming

Featuring
Francis - vocals track 2
Matthew - vocals track 2
Nicholas - vocals track 5
Joseph - lead guitar track 6
Michael - lead guitar track 7
Mark - lead guitar track 12

All music and lyrics by N. Reed
Recorded and mixed at Wayward Studios, 2020
Mastered by Azimuth Mastering, www.azimuthmastering.com

Cover photo by N. Reed

A very special thank you to: Nicole, Alexander, Mom, Dad, Kyle, Caitlin, Jason, Joe, Don, Mark, Farnham, Frankie, Matthew, Jordan, Noonan, Jake, Shawn, Becca, D (thanks for the song title!), THE Tom Nix, Dr. Amy, Kyle, Jo, Nick, KM, Katie, Andrea, Beth, Veronica, Eleanor, Chidi, David Bowie, and everyone everywhere.

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How I Became Invisible Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

songs about science, sadness, anger, and transition. we're all in this together. so raise your fist and start to sing.

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